Pieces of me………

There are many times, I wish to express myself fully but then again after thinking twice, i tell myself it’s better that I don’t. As I sit in front of my PC I feel as if I’m living 2 lives. Sometimes, I can’t really be myself because I should by right lead a good example to the people around me. I am a youth, immatured at times, tend to make silly decisions sometimes, still naive, still playful and cheeky…….but then again I can’t behave childishly most of the time because I’m a campus minister and I should lead by example……I can’t really expect others to behave if I don’t behave myself right?

It feels like I have many eyes watching over me, curious cats who wonder whats in my head……..the bad news is that when you are too careful with yourself and your own behaviour, you tend to loose yourself and gosh i really don’t want that to happen to me. I guess sometimes i need to spend more momments in silent and listen to what God tells me and yes to rejuvinate my mind and be my true self again. Wearing a mask is very uncomfortable ain’t it?

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