If Only……
Today’s newspaper read ‘Leon’s hearse visits school to fulfill his last wish’
12 year old Leon Gomez had lost his seven-month battle to cancer and that his parents had arranged for the hearse that carried the body of the 12 year old to visit his school for one last time before his funeral service. I felt sad reading the news. 1 young boy who had such a bright future ahead of him had died and I’m sure if he had a choice, he would not have chosen to end his life at such a young age.
Last night, I received news that one of my Juniors is fighting for his life in the hospital and that doctors have asked for the priest to give him the final sacrament. I was stunned to hear the news. No, he was not suffering from lymphoma, or any other type of cancer or disease. I never heard him say that he was ill. When I saw him two months ago, he was as playful and cheeky as ever. It’s so hard to imagine and believe that he is now lying in the hospital bed and fighting for his dear life.
Sense of regrets overshadowed me; the ‘I wish I had’ feelings came rushing into my head. I might never even get to see this guy ever again, not even be able to visit him in the hospital. Life is so vulnerable and unpredictable. I tried to convince myself that maybe he will pull through but it seems impossible unless a miracle happens.
I dare not ask God why he allowed this guy and his family to experience such pain all I can do now is pray and hope that God is merciful enough to give him a second chance to carry on with his life and complete his studies.
Last night, as I lay on my bed, I thought of my own life and of the people around me. I thought of how I had taken people for granted and how I sometimes hurt their feelings. I thought of the person that I love and yet hurt so much; I tried to imagine how things would be if suddenly his life is taken away…….gosh I don’t want that to happen……no doubt, he has hurt my feelings but I don’t think I can bare the pain of loosing him and not having him by my side anymore……life is so precious, it’s so vital to treat those around us well and appreciate them as if it was the last time we would see them………why hurt others?…….life is vulnerable, tomorrow cannot be predicted and the opportunity to say sorry might not even come.
