I’m in love…….
My heart has been stolen, and I’m so in love. Oh, I do love him and I will continue to still be in love with him, but it is not him that I’m going to talk about here but a twenty one year old little friend who stole my heart away. She might not realize it but I do feel her absence in my life whenever she is not around. She is teaching me how to love even more………of course i mean as a friend….what were you thinking?
Changes in life can either be good or bad. When you are uncertain of what lies ahead and is not very confident with yourself, you dread to face it.
It took me some time before I took courage to move into XHRC. Staying in Serdang for the pass six years had made Serdang my second home. I was very much happy with the family I had over there. My housemates were pleasant, I had many friends, the neighborhood was familiar to me and like it or not, I did have some feelings of affection towards the people in the neighborhood. I delayed moving into this new place because I did not want to loose my comfort zone and all the nice people that I have in my life over back in Serdang.
I feared moving into the new place. I feared the environment, I feared that the students would not like me, I feared that the people in my new neighborhood would not accept me for what I am, I feared criticisms, I feared judgmental eyes, I feared not living up to the expectations of many, what more to take over the responsibilities passed on to me from the previous Warden. What if I was not good enough in the eyes of others?
Today, some of those fears still exist, but I have come to believe that things are not that bad actually. I thought I was not good enough but many new people are coming into my life, convincing me that life in this new place can be great if I allow it to happen. It may sound ironic but what helped me to look forward to life in my new home are actually the students who dwell in this two storey building. I look forward to going back home every evening because of these people. They are full of joy, there’s always laughter in the house and there’s someone who is willing to share. I might not have expressed my happiness or gratitude but it really is nice to have someone to greet you are the door with a cheerful smile each time you come back after a long day at work. It is really nice to have someone taking the trouble to give you the extra attention, or a nice massage just because they care.
They may bite me, laugh and do silly tricks to make me look like a fool at times but I couldn’t care less because I know that it is love that dwells in them and if anything bad were to happen to them, my heart would really ache if I could not help.
………why am I in love with this twenty one year old girl? Cause she is outstandingly lovable! And adorable!
